A Big Mess

It's typical that life is always changing, always giving me a chance to play "catch up."

Even being one of those people who isn't into the next thing, I find myself behind so many times.

I don't need the next generation of iPhone on my list to feel so tired of working on myself, where I'm at, and what I have, for instance.

All it takes for me is trying to get rote that crazy balance of life, emotions, work, play, God, growth, and occassionally feeling pretty.

My apartment is a mess, and I need to go to the gym. Or my apartment is clean, but I am SO TIRED. Or the bills are paid, but I didn't have enough for savings this month. I know this is being an adult - blah blah blah - but that doesn't mean I am okay with it. I mean, I can do one of two things, ignore my problems and pitfalls, or deal with them. I cannot erase them or make my life into something it isn't over night. Nor can I reach the end goal, until, well, the end. I am always in process, and in that way it's all a good thing. But boy, what a complicated process it is!

XOXO.