Letting go

Just this afternoon I was feeling pretty frustrated with my current situation of being "stuck" in life. Nothing's wrong with life, though some things could be better, but there is often, I have found in my 23rd-26th year, this feeling of a holding pattern, where I am waiting for life to be where I want it to be, though that place is never more than hypothetical.

I thought it was awesome, then, to happen upon this blog, where a guy 10 years my senior and a continent away feels like that too. In fact, I bet we all do, if we're honest. I liked how he described the tension of being happy and grateful for where he was is but still persistently seeking to do more and better.

I've been reading a book about women's rivalry this week too, that has me thinking this syndrome might be even worse for women, who are more concerned with facade and yet often feel less capable or willing to be assertive. It puts us in a double bind whereby we feeling too weak to take what we want at times, while maintaining this lie that we already have all that we want. That's blunt, but I think that about sums it up.

I was happy to see a dude putting this out there for the world, and I am happy to keep thinking about this stuff. I do not want to waste an iota of my potential, and that requires a fine balance of productivity without burnout, and assertiveness and ambition without losing compassion, creativity and integrity...And knowing that life is always, always a marathon run for a great cause above and beyond oneself.