Thought Provoking Question: 6 of 25

I thought you'd never ask...

I am certainly holding on to lots, much of it unintentionally, but never the less. While the question asks about something in particular, I think I am going to need to jump around here a bit.

I need to let go of the fear that I am incompetent. This fear is based in insecurity, some financial, some emotional, some social. It really doesn't have a place in a world where my purpose is to love God and love others with my whole heart. Its place is back with a need for achievement and praise and approval that sought my worth from somewhere outside of my Creator. Its place is in a time when I thought personal improvement meant never resting, never being content, and always worrying. My once-fragile sense of worthiness is a wolf in sheep's clothing for me, hiding under the term "competency." It's time to let go of thinking that my right to exist is somehow conditional.

I need to let go of idealizing. Seeing things as they are provides clear insight into the choices I have and my autonomy to exercise them. Idealizing leaves me idle and disengaged. Idealizing is not to be confused with imagination, which I think I ought to really embrace a bit more of these days. Idealizing is taking me out of the moment when life could be rich with the now.

Finally, I think I need to let go of busyness. Big time. It's another one of my wolves, and like idealizing, it is not a friend to the present, but zaps it of its glory. Thoughtfulness, a laugh and a smile all find me when I stop doing and start being.